My Father was waiting for me....

Hello everybody!! Firstly I want thank all those who prayed for me
during these times. It is because of your prayers that I have come back,
to my home. I had gone astray. I thank God that He welcomed me with open
arms, just as He had done with the prodigal son.
I thank God, that He has forgiven all my iniquities and accepted me. I
praise you God and my heart is filled with Joy.
After almost a year I prayed, yes I prayed to my God – my Father. It was
wonderful!!! I was also after a year that I spoke with my brother Cyril.
I haven't spoken to any Godly person for a year. It was today that I
opened my heart to God.
All that I can say is thank You, thank You. I thank You, Jesus for dying
for me, for my sake. Thank Lord, Thank You.

I just want to share the scripture which God had spoken to me. Again, I
read the bible after a year. This is from Jonah chapters 1 and 2.
God asked Jonah to go to Nineveh, but Jonah was running away from the
presence of God. I was doing this for almost a year, running away from
the presence of God. It was because of my sins, my wretchedness, my
unbelief and my lust. There had been many situation where God was
calling me, but I had no mood or will to go to God. I was indulged in
worldly pleasures. This could have been the same reason why Jonah was
running away from God. It could been his sins, or his wretch human
sinful flesh which he compared with the Holiest of Holy God. I remember
the prodigal son. He was desperate to flee from his Fathers house.
What happened next is what love the most. It was not Jonah or the
prodigal son who took the first step to go back. But it was God
Almighty, the Maker of Heaven and Earth, who came for us. Yes, we who
are just like the grains of sand in the sea shore. He sent a mighty wind
for Jonah and He allowed the prodigal son to be ruined.
Jonah was woken up, and realized his sin and was pleading for death. He
said, "Throw me into the sea". But in his heart he was praying, praying
that his God will forgive and deliver him. When the seas billowed upon
him, when the waves crashed him, he was still praying.
And God even before he had started this storm, He had prepared a fish to
swallow Jonah. Just like, how the Father was prepared for greeting His
prodigal son.

I thank God for He allowed the storm, even in my life. It was that I may
come to my senses. I praise God for he accepted me. Praise God.

He is My LORD

In the days before, I have gone through days, which was not the will the God. I have sinned, no I have fornication, lived licentiously as an adultery. Under the tree on the hill, I was waiting to sin. Today, I just asked why? Why was I sinning? Can't God stop me? Is God in Control? Why am I *still* sinning?

The worst was that I was asking all these questions for God to solve one of my problems. I was being a hypocrite. When I asked each of those questions there was hypocrisy in my heart. Then I asked another question (and this not sure if it was more the hypocrite), why am I a hypocrite?
My mind suddenly turned to God and all that He made, except me. Oh, how beautiful!! So I just decided to Praise Him for His glory and might acts.

I started with the song, "He is Lord, He is ...." But I realized it was not from my heart. I was still a hypocrite. But something in my heart said, sing it no matter what you (I) may be. Then I continued - "He is Lord, He is Lord, He has risen from the dead and He is Lord". When I came to this very line, "Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess, that Jesus Christ is Lord" I was till being a hypocrite. I said to my Lord loud and clear, this line is not true for me.

"Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess, that Jesus Christ is Lord", is actually a prophesy. I knew with all my heart that one day I will bow down before Him. I just want it to be this day. And I sang again with this in my heart. And behold, I was on my knees and confessing that Jesus is My LORD.

Lord, I am sorry that I sinned against You, in the past. But I thank You that You are still in control. You let all that had to happen to me. You let all that You hated to happen to me, it may result in all that You love.

Thank You Lord Jesus, that you bore the cross for me, for my sins. God, I thank You that You allowed all that You hated to happen to Your Son (treason, mockery, murder, accusation, betrayal, pain) so that we could love You, and this was what You loved to see happen.

Thank You - again.

He is Lord,
He is Lord,
He has risen from the dead and He is Lord,
Every knee shall bow,
Every tongue confess,
That Jesus Christ is Lord.

He is my Lord,
He is my Lord,
He has risen from the dead and He is my Lord,
Let my knees bow down,
Let my tongue confess,
That Jesus Christ is MY LORD.

(Listen to "He is Lord")